Wednesday, April 18, 2007
i feel very very very overwhelmed all of a sudden..
by MY WORK.
its onlie a temp job for god sake.
today daryl asked mi to reconsider abt de job offer again..
im reallie considering..
bt my interest..
i reallie dun tink it lies here.
n emily.
god bless her for her roundabout way of asking.
she asked if i would perfer admin work or ops work.
i said i dont mind.
actuallie i dont.
bt i wanna work admin..
is for admin exp.
n also.. coz i wanna rest my mind.
now..
i feel that i have to use my mind more then usual.
its... very taxing.. on both my body. n soul.
im supper tired.
ok.
den she said frm next mth onward she will put some vessels to be completely under my care.
god.
how cum i feel that they are grooming mi?
n presuring mi..
dis job is stressful.
coz of the people (customers, suppliers, agents..etc) i have to face..
as well as de money involved..
as well as de trust dey place on mi..
omg..
i din sleep well last night..
i fact i woke up a few times thinking abt this..
its.. scary..
its like de first thought on my mind when i wake.
n de last when i finallie sleep..
what shd i do..?
will i reallie choose to work instead of study?
hai..
everytime i saw de certain someone name pops up..
i feel a supreme sense of dread..
i dun noe how to explain it.
bt bestie doesnt understand.
=S
i guess..
its quite hard to know..
even for myself..
anyway.
i met JOHNNY today.
after like 1 whole year.
haha.
even in skool oso nv so qiao see him..
for one whole sem i din even see him in skool.
i saw him today.
n pls.
i wasnt embarrassed..
y shd i be?
yeah!
i saw sulaiha too..
on my way home..
hees.
n thx mummie..
comments : i tink my sitting posture is wrong!!
im suffering frm backache..